I wrote this around 5 or 6 years ago. As the title suggests, it’s about my very first encounter with love and heartbreak. Reading it again after a long time makes me smile. I guess it’s true that you never really forget your first love.

Hey silly Billy boy
I miss seeing that cute face
I miss how you try to make me smile
in so many different ways
The way you’d blush and try to hide
every time I walk your way
And when you trip and stumble
as you try to find the right words to say
How can I resist when you flash
that smile so big and bright
And when you wrap your arms around me
oh so very tight
Take my hand and don’t let go
I want you here with me
Everything is perfect, all is good
You make me so happy
Start my day right
with your messages so sweet
Your compliments and cheesy lines
make my heart skip a beat
You got me wrapped around your finger
I’m so head over heels
I wonder if you’re aware of
how good this truly feels
My Billy, sweet Billy
how can I ever forget
That fateful day I caught your eye
the first time we ever met
Remember when you looked me in the eye
and told me I was your favorite girl?
I seriously forgot how to breathe
That totally rocked my world
What about that time you told me
you had a big surprise
You took my hand and pulled me close
then you told me to close my eyes
Before I even had time to think
I felt your lips on mine
My first kiss, it felt so good
So tender and divine

So tell me Billy baby
why’d you leave me standing on my own
I couldn’t believe what was going on
when we broke up over the phone
I cried my heart out for days and days
I didn’t know what to do
All I knew was that we made a mistake
And I was hoping you knew that too
But you hopped on a plane and moved far away
leaving me helpless and betrayed
You could have at least given me a proper goodbye
or better yet, I wish you would’ve stayed
My heart was crushed, my best friend was gone
Never thought this would happen to me
It hurts like crazy, the pain’s unbearable
How did this come to be?
Billy, I know I’ll never forget
my first love, my first kiss
I know things will never be the same
But I just want you to know this:
Those years we spent together
I will always cherish in my heart
I loved you then, and I still love you now
even though we’ve grown apart
We may never speak again
but I hope one day you’ll see
That even though it didn’t last
My first love you’ll always be

*FYI, his name is not actually Billy. That’s just a nickname. Friends, I’m sure you know who I’m talking about. ;)